Strike up the band, the conductor is b e c k o n i n g. x

& today's paper wasn't so bright and cheery ;

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

gosh i'm damn hot today.
HAHA as in i'm having fever, sore throat, blocked nose, you know, common flu. aaii.
just now when my temperature was 39 degrees celsius, i really felt like my whole brain was on fire. my hair was hot too! lol.
at least now i'm slightly better. sigh really hope to be back in school tomorrow... poor jan is alone...WITH MEL! sympathise with her man...
oh and i had to miss claudia's birthday celebration today.SAD!

dear God, i pray that you'll bless claudia with spiritual growth as she turns a year older. i pray that you'll be able to remove her fears and insecurities. i also pray that you'll be with peining. let her get her priorities right, and follow her heart. i pray that she'll be able to be accepted for CAP, with all her hard work and great desire to go for it. AMEN!(:

stop the time ; 7:42 PM

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Sunday, January 17, 2010

ohh. tomorrow's monday. attack of the killer homework. and endless shoulder aches. and headaches. arrh.
resolution for the week: to take on everything like a child of God!

oh and to study for the tests. what tests are there again?

stop the time ; 10:06 PM

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awww... i had to miss combined service today, to do homework at home!! gosh so depressing... i still gotta finish one history mindmap, find red straws for jan, and do 阅读集成! what a bad day...
nevermind, i shall not be so pessimistic and finish today's work today! or this weeks work this week. haha :X

dear God, i pray for today's combined service to be meaningful to everyone, and that you'll allow us to understand your word more. let all of us be enlightened by your presence! bless hope church on this day, when all our brothers and sisters in Christ gather together to praise you, and worship you. we thank you for blessing those who are able to be there today, and we pray for those who are unable to go, pray that you'll still watch over them and love them. AMEN! :D

stop the time ; 4:03 PM

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Saturday, January 16, 2010

ok today was... wrong.
i went to buy dried goods and new year stuff with my mum at some place in waterloo street. then when i was waiting for her this weird guy in a pink polo tee and white specs came to talk to me. WHAT THE! damn weird. i almost shouted for my mummy to come!
haha at least he wasn't a stalker. he said that his younger sister was in st nicks, sec 4. my senior hah! but why would he know me anyway...?
ok enough of that. wonder how peining's workshop was. must have been fun yeah? at least someone's having a nice weekend :D
ahh i really need to go back to my old, bubbly self. this is driving me CRAZY, CRAZY, CRAZY ABOUT YOU BABY. haha aerosmith song.

oopsy, that was really RANDOMM.:0

dear God, i pray that tomorrow's combined service will be a great one and that it'll help our sisters and brothers in Christ love you more, and you'll expel all our doubts and negative feelings. refresh us, and embrace us with your love. i pray that more people will come to know of your love, and learn to love you too. i pray for ned2, that we'll cope with our busy schedules, and never forget to include you in whatever we do. i pray for peining, that she'll be able to adapt to the responsibilities she has, as Your child, as a shepherd, as a sheep, and the many others she has to face in school and out of school. let your love for her show in how she does things, and the choices she makes. i also pray for baggio, that he'll grow, spiritually and mentally. be with him as he slowly learns about the difficulties this year may bring . let him choose the road you have paved for him, and not stray easily, by the outside conditions around him. i also pray for jan, that she'll have more of You in her life. i pray that you'll help her make the right choices, and let Your love fill her as she faces setbacks along the way. pick her up when she falls, and make her stronger in the process. strengthen her heart and soul, and let her be able to face the things she's afraid to face. AMEN! (:
God bless my dears :D

stop the time ; 10:16 PM

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Friday, January 15, 2010

oh school is as sucky as ever... CCA and everything...
gosh i'm mentally and physically exhausted.
i don't want any of this.
i didn't ask for it.
i would kill for a moment of peace. just a moment.
a moment with God. and God alone. just God and me.
i NEED it.
my privacy's gone. everything's gone.
i don't wanna be whiny but all this stuff is really getting to me. like REALLY.
i don't want to be affected. i want very much to keep up my usual positive vibe, but i'm spending too much of it trying to cheer people up. i wouldn't usually mind, but i don't think i can take this any longer. my cheerfulness is being used up. like the health bar in a war game.
oh yes. it's like fighting an endless war. a war without victory. only loss. only causing me to lose so many of my soldiers, fighting the war in me. when will this end?

dear God, i pray that you'll calm all our disturbed and troubled hearts with your presence. i pray for peining, that her other problems will not stray her away from your path. i also pray for jan, who is struggling with her own problems. i pray for ned2, that all of our sisters' new year resolutions will somehow work out, and i pray that my top-of-the-list resolution, to bring more people to y-hope, will be able to come true. even through all my difficulties, let me be your salt and light, for you, for ned2, for the people i love and the people around me. AMEN. nights everyone.

stop the time ; 11:35 PM